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Zebra Files 12) Bracing for the Week Ahead
The author expresses anxiety about upcoming changes at work, including requesting accommodations while facing performance evaluations. They feel disposable and fear job insecurity. Additionally, they are frustrated with their medical care regarding scoliosis and the need for imaging. Amid personal challenges, they strive to manage their responsibilities while seeking answers about their health. Continue reading
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21) Race
The author reflects on their family’s self-perception of not being racist, despite underlying prejudices and racial microaggressions. They recount childhood experiences that reveal systemic racism in their upbringing. As a parent, they strive to raise antiracist children, acknowledging their own biases and the importance of confronting and understanding racism, aiming for personal and societal change. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 11) Trying To Recuperate When I Run Out Of Spoons
The author reflects on their struggles with chronic pain and hypermobility syndrome, recounting past injuries and the challenge of recognizing their physical limits. They describe a life of pushing through exhaustion, fear of losing patience with others, and the need to find ways to refuel their energy, hoping for accommodations at work. Continue reading
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20) Conformity
Conformity drives group behavior, influencing beliefs and actions, often unconsciously. It fosters belonging but can also lead to heinous acts. Studies like Asch’s and Milgram’s reveal the strength of peer pressure and obedience. Understanding these dynamics is crucial for resisting harmful group norms and fostering individual critical thinking. Continue reading
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19) Presidential Fitness Test
The Presidential Fitness Test, established in the 1950s to assess youth fitness in comparison to European peers, emphasized military-style performance. Over the years, it became associated with body shaming and emotional trauma for many, particularly those facing physical limitations. The test was abolished in 2013 after widespread criticism. Continue reading
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18) High School
The author shares experiences from high school, highlighting a strained familial relationship, particularly with their mother, over decisions like language studies and school policies. They describe friendships formed among a rebellious group, issues with attendance, and the challenges faced in a restrictive home environment, ultimately leading to feelings of isolation and disappointment. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 10) I’m Not At My Best, But I’m Trying My Best
The writer expresses feelings of inadequacy despite trying their best amidst constant pressure. They detail struggles with work competency and personal needs, emphasizing the importance of therapy and self-care. Acknowledging limitations and the necessity for help, they grapple with managing pain and family responsibilities while seeking acceptance and improvement. Continue reading
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17) Mallard Duck Day
The post reflects on the author’s challenging junior high experience, highlighting key teachers who positively impacted their life. Despite struggles with social dynamics, teachers inspired confidence, fostering a love for learning. However, bullying and lack of support from administration devastated one beloved teacher, resulting in a profound sense of loss for the author. Continue reading
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16) Junior High
The author reflects on their challenging experience in junior high, marked by a lack of family support and feelings of isolation. As their family became distant, the author faced bullying and ridicule at school. Despite moments of achievement, like performing in a musical, they struggled to find acceptance and belonging among peers. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 9) Being Realistic
The author shares their struggle to maintain a healthy diet while juggling multiple responsibilities. They emphasize the importance of cooking from scratch and listening to their body’s needs without being restrictive. Meal prep can be challenging, and they acknowledge the need for grace during the healing journey ahead, which requires understanding their health issues. Continue reading
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15) Starting Over
The post reflects on personal experiences of childhood trauma and healing, highlighting the significance of supportive relationships, like a caring teacher during difficult times, and memorable family trips. It addresses themes of grief, resilience, and the challenges of navigating societal expectations while coping with loss and navigating adolescence. Continue reading
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Intersex Variations
The article explores intersex variations and highlights the inadequacy of available information about intersex populations. It critiques scientific biases that marginalize their experiences and suggests reframing terminology to promote understanding. The author emphasizes the importance of recognizing intersex identities, advocating for validation, love, and the normalization of variations in human genetics. Continue reading
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14) Aftermath
After the author’s father’s suicide due to schizophrenia, their family faced overwhelming grief and societal stigma surrounding mental illness. The author took on responsibilities to support their mother and younger siblings while coping with their own numbness and confusion. The birth of a new sister brought moments of joy amidst their sorrow, fostering a deeper… Continue reading
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13) School
The narrative follows a student’s challenging journey through elementary school, marked by struggles with social acceptance, weight issues, and coping with mental health after their father’s suicide. They navigate difficult relationships with peers and teachers, ultimately grappling with feelings of isolation, confusion, and loss amid attempts for a normal school experience. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 7) Did Not See This Coming
The visit to Dr. Handjob revealed mixed news regarding health concerns. While he initially ruled out a CSF leak, he suggested other possible diagnoses: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Cerebral Spinal Fluid Leak, and Multiple Sclerosis. Diagnostic tests will clarify the situation, leaving uncertainty about the outcomes but maintaining a sense of humor. Continue reading
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