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39) Runaway Part Two
The adventure continues, until it all ends. Continue reading
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38) Runaway Part 1
The author makes a break for it, escaping the control of home, for whatever the world would present. Continue reading
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7) New Scripts – Revisited
The narrative reflects on a childhood shaped by rigid family dynamics and expectations, particularly towards maternal roles. The author recounts the contrast between their mother’s lively past and the oppressive environment created by their grandmother. Moving to Indiana signifies a turning point, offering glimpses of newfound freedom and self-discovery amid evolving family scripts. Continue reading
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37) That One Time I Snuck Out
The author reflects on their high school choir experience, where singing provided comfort and connection. They describe a close friendship with Mr. E, a rebellious peer, sharing dreams and secrets during secret visits. A risky late-night venture ultimately leads to panic and Mr. E’s sudden disappearance, leaving unresolved feelings behind. Continue reading
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34) My Best Friend
The author reflects on their best friend, a metaphor for unhealthy relationships with food, particularly sweets. Childhood experiences of emotional comfort from candy contrast sharply with societal and familial pressures, which led to weight gain and shame. The bond with “Bestie” symbolizes addiction and the struggle for self-acceptance amidst these challenges. Continue reading
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3) My Cult of Origin
The author explores the concept of “normal” as defined by family upbringing and experiences, using The Cult of the Ego to detail their childhood in a Colorado family shaped by strong patriarchal figures and specific behavioral expectations. The narrative highlights the impact of familial dynamics, traditions, and the importance of mentorship, alongside elements of affection,… Continue reading
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33) Man Hating
In the 1990s, gender dynamics were marked by a struggle between men asserting dominance and women fighting for recognition. Popular media reflected this tension, while feminism emerged as a counternarrative. Personal experiences showcased deep-seated frustrations with sexism, highlighting the emotional toll and societal expectations placed on women during that era. Continue reading
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2) The Cult of the Ego – Revisited
The Cult of the Ego examines how power dynamics shape individual behavior and societal structures, enabling a bodied understanding through the examination of dynamics of the interactions among children on a playground. The author reflects on personal experiences within mini cults of family and social hierarchies, urging self-examination regarding compliance and the reinforcement of power… Continue reading
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32) Sisters Part Three
The narrative explores the author’s complex upbringing under a mother who employed strict, dog-training-like tactics to mold her children, often indulging in power struggles. This led to emotional manipulation and gaslighting, impacting behavior and self-worth. The author reflects on the environment that fostered validation through parenting methods devoid of empathy. Continue reading
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31) Mom’s Mistake
The author reflects on their relationship with their mother, their place in the family, and how they coped. Continue reading
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30) Public Shaming
Public shaming in educational settings has severe detrimental effects on children’s identity and mental health. It fosters fear, resentment, and low self-esteem, and reinforces negative behaviors such as bullying. A nurturing environment, free from humiliation, is critical for fostering growth, vulnerability, and overall wellbeing in children facing diverse challenges. Continue reading
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29) Sisters Part Two
The author reflects on the challenging experience of caring for younger sisters, feeling the absence of their mother. Bath time transforms from joy to a struggle, marked by fear and harsh discipline influenced by the mother’s expectations. The narrator grapples with feelings of inadequacy and learns harmful lessons on parenting. Continue reading
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The Cabal
The Cabal The Cabal revealed in the Epstein Files is EXACTLY how politicians are compromised and turned. When Clinton didn’t do what the Cabal wanted, they outed him about Lewinsky. When Hamilton didn’t do what the Cabal wanted, they threatened the same and thus we have The Reynold’s Pamphlet. This Cabal has been central to… Continue reading
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55) Grandma’s Grooming
The author recounts double-edged memories of visiting Grandma before school in the 90s, where they received old episodes of a soap opera and Rush Limbaugh’s show. Limbaugh’s provocative rhetoric influenced family dynamics and the author’s understanding of femininity, as they engaged in performing politically charged SCRIPTs that impacted their identity. Continue reading
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23) Conformity Part Two
The Stanford Prison Experiment, conducted by Philip Zimbardo in 1971, showcased the impact of perceived authority on human behavior in a simulated prison environment. Initially planned for two weeks, it ended after six days due to distress among participants, revealing how power and helplessness can drastically alter individuals’ actions and psyche. Continue reading
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