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15) Starting Over- Revisited
The post reflects on personal experiences of childhood trauma and healing, highlighting the significance of supportive relationships, like a caring teacher during difficult times, and memorable family trips. It addresses themes of grief, resilience, and the challenges of navigating societal expectations while coping with loss and navigating adolescence. Continue reading
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- Episkevology is the practice of repair.
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Most of us were taught that “therapy” means something clinical:a diagnosis, a treatment plan, a professional who fixes what’s wrong… Read more: Not Therapy — Repairapy - 37) That One Time I Snuck Out
The author reflects on their high school choir experience, where singing provided comfort and connection. They describe a close friendship with Mr. E, a rebellious peer, sharing dreams and secrets during secret visits. A risky late-night venture ultimately leads to panic and Mr. E’s sudden disappearance, leaving unresolved feelings behind. - 67) Perfect Storm
The author recounts being questioned by the police, and punished by their mother. A plan is hatched to leave town. - 5) I Wanna Play
The post “I Wanna Play” by Protyus A. Gendher reflects on the author’s experiences with isolation and societal exclusion throughout childhood and adulthood. Through evocative poetry, the author expresses longing for acceptance and understanding while critiquing the arbitrary social rules that dictate belonging. Ultimately, they seek to redefine the game rather than conform to it. - 66) Just a Little Mental Break
The author reflects on their challenging transition to a new home while coping with disabilities and past trauma. Inspired by a Netflix documentary, they confront buried memories of childhood abuse and the complexities of their experiences. The upcoming posts will delve deeper into their narrative, highlighting systemic violence and societal issues. - Narc Move 18: The Any Given Sunday Switch
Narc Move 18: The Any Given Sunday Switch Why Ordinary People Become Unsafe the Moment Pressure Hits Most people think… Read more: Narc Move 18: The Any Given Sunday Switch - (no title)
Narc Move 17: The Blame Game How Shame Turns Into a Story — And Why You Become the Villain in… Read more: (no title) - Narc Move 16: Safety Scarcity
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