Protyus A. Gendher
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Closet Doors
Closet Doors explores concepts of safety and identity Continue reading
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Boi
The poem “Boi” by Protyus A. Gendher explores themes of identity, societal expectations, and self-acceptance. It expresses the struggle of fitting into predefined roles while encouraging authenticity and the recognition of one’s worth. The speaker emphasizes that individuals are valid and valuable just as they are, despite external pressures. Continue reading
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Before I Knew I Was Trans
Before I Knew I Was Trans by Protyus A. Gendher Before I Knew I Was Trans Before I knew I was trans I sucked at being a girl I sucked at learning all of the prescribed rules I was force-fed in this world. I sucked at keeping my knees together wearing the skirt that they Continue reading
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Ally
Examine allyship. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 21) Prep Is a Four-Letter Word Meaning “Work”
The author shares their journey of implementing lifestyle and meal planning changes, acknowledging the challenges faced due to physical limitations. They emphasize the importance of preparation and adaptability while discussing their weekly meal plan, focusing on easy, repetitive recipes. The author hopes their experiences will inspire others without imposing judgments. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 20) A Disastrous Goodbye
The author reflects on saying farewell to foods that cause discomfort, particularly stuffed Anaheims. Despite their deliciousness, the preparation proves painfully labor-intensive and leads to negative physical reactions. This experience reinforces the author’s commitment to managing their diet, acknowledging that while tempting, many foods are ultimately unsuitable for their body. Continue reading
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Family
The poem “Family” by Protyus A. Gendher explores the pain and alienation felt within a dysfunctional family. It reflects on the façade of love and support while revealing the torment of gaslighting and the pressure to conform. Ultimately, the speaker recognizes the impact of this toxicity on their own child and struggles with the need… Continue reading
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Disposable
The poem “Disposable” by Protyus A. Gendher reflects the pain of feeling welcomed only to be reminded of one’s outsider status. The author expresses the hurt of false kindness from those who, once boundaries are drawn, reveal that their affection is conditional, leaving the speaker feeling alone and undervalued. Continue reading
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30) Public Shaming
Public shaming in educational settings has severe detrimental effects on children’s identity and mental health. It fosters fear, resentment, and low self-esteem, and reinforces negative behaviors such as bullying. A nurturing environment, free from humiliation, is critical for fostering growth, vulnerability, and overall wellbeing in children facing diverse challenges. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 19) The Symptoms
The author shares a comprehensive list of their various health symptoms and diagnoses, including ADHD, autism, arthritis, and chronic pain. They aim to track their health changes as they interact with specialists and emphasize that the list serves as a reference. Many symptoms are severe and include issues like fatigue and digestive sensitivities. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 18) Understanding Where I’m Coming From
The author shares poetry reflecting on personal health struggles, including mental health, ADHD, and obesity. The poem describes a transformative experience with mental anguish, contemplating death before choosing life. The semicolon symbolizes resilience, representing a continuation of the author’s story despite hardships. The work emphasizes overcoming despair and embracing a renewed existence. Continue reading
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29) Sisters Part Two
The author reflects on the challenging experience of caring for younger sisters, feeling the absence of their mother. Bath time transforms from joy to a struggle, marked by fear and harsh discipline influenced by the mother’s expectations. The narrator grapples with feelings of inadequacy and learns harmful lessons on parenting. Continue reading
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28) Sisters
The author reflects on their complex relationships with younger sisters, shaped significantly by the loss of their father. Sister A, often feeling neglected, developed a distrustful personality, while Sister B became the author’s cherished companion. The narrative explores family dynamics, caregiving responsibilities, and the lasting impact of grief on sibling connections. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 17) Trying To Hit A Moving Target
The writer compares managing health challenges to eating a whole elephant, emphasizing ongoing struggles with pain, medical tests, and difficult lifestyle choices. They face guilt over limitations and are exploring dietary changes to alleviate symptoms. Despite setbacks, they remain committed to seeking treatment and improving their well-being while acknowledging the complexities involved. Continue reading
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27) Autism
The author reflects on their journey with autism and ADHD, emphasizing the struggles of misdiagnosis and societal expectations. They recount experiences of isolation, misunderstanding, and the challenges of conformity in a rigid educational system. The narrative highlights the need for better recognition of autism, particularly among girls and non-binary individuals. Continue reading
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