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37) That One Time I Snuck Out
The author reflects on their high school choir experience, where singing provided comfort and connection. They describe a close friendship with Mr. E, a rebellious peer, sharing dreams and secrets during secret visits. A risky late-night venture ultimately leads to panic and Mr. E’s sudden disappearance, leaving unresolved feelings behind. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 26) The Power of a Shower
The post discusses the author’s personal journey through caffeine withdrawal, emphasizing the importance of self-care. They describe acknowledging their struggles, countering cravings, and nurturing themselves with nutritious food and meaningful conversations. The acronym “Please Master” highlights self-care’s role in emotional regulation, fostering healthier patterns, and promoting overall well-being. Continue reading
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36) My Childhood In Pictures
The post shares a nostalgic glimpse into the author’s childhood through a collection of photos, starting from a young age and including family members and pets. It reflects on hair struggles, school memories, and a specific International Day celebration. The author invites readers to enjoy this visual journey into their past. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 26) Backwards is also Backwards
The author expresses the struggle of managing their health system challenges related to hypermobility, including denied medical referrals and insurance issues. Despite making progress, they are dealing with discouragement, caffeine withdrawal, and the pressure of adult responsibilities. They embrace their current difficulties while maintaining hope for future improvements. Continue reading
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35) The Panopticon
The content discusses the concept of the Panopticon and its implications in everyday life, reflecting on how surveillance influences behavior. It shares personal anecdotes of growing up in a community where individuals constantly monitored each other, leading to anxiety and a sense of inescapability. The narrative highlights the psychological effects of such a surveillance culture. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 25) Sometimes Forward is Backward
The author details their experience of caffeine withdrawal after switching from coffee and soda to water. Despite engaging in healthy activities like yoga, they feel nauseous and irritable. They emphasize the importance of radical acceptance in managing discomfort and acknowledge that while withdrawal is brutal, it is temporary and part of their lifestyle change. Continue reading
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34) My Best Friend
The author reflects on their best friend, a metaphor for unhealthy relationships with food, particularly sweets. Childhood experiences of emotional comfort from candy contrast sharply with societal and familial pressures, which led to weight gain and shame. The bond with “Bestie” symbolizes addiction and the struggle for self-acceptance amidst these challenges. Continue reading
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Heartbreak and Hoofbeats
Heartbreak and Hoofbeats by Protyus A. Gendher Heartbreak and HoofbeatsProfessionals are trained to unsee me Even when they’re looking for things unseen They can’t or won’t or don’t look deep Even when I spread it all out before their eyes Tying pieces together like an episode of CSI Flimsy red string connecting the bits of the puzzle But they listen like Continue reading
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Hands Tied
Hands Tied by Protyus A. Gendher Hands Tied Hands Tied There’s a commotion outside And my hands are tied Piercing the night Screams of rage and fright They’re fighting again Could this be the end? Could this be the fight Someone doesn’t survive? I’ve been in those fights Before in my life So, I don’t have to know them To know what’s inside Both of them sound abusive, Because abuse Continue reading
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Gumption
In “Gumption,” Protyus A. Gendher explores themes of identity, individuality, and resistance against societal expectations. The speaker rejects commodification and challenges perceptions that reduce a person to mere consumption, asserting their unique voice and worth. They confront the hypocrisy and superficiality of judgments from others, embracing their authenticity. Continue reading
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Going Numb
Reflections of 2020 Continue reading
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Zebra Files 24) Settling In
On day two of a lifestyle change, the writer confronts strong cravings and the challenge of balancing allowable, appealing, and easy-to-prepare foods. While struggling with discomfort, they acknowledge that improvement feels minimal, focusing instead on reducing misery. Acceptance of this ongoing journey becomes crucial for long-term success. Continue reading
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33) Man Hating
In the 1990s, gender dynamics were marked by a struggle between men asserting dominance and women fighting for recognition. Popular media reflected this tension, while feminism emerged as a counternarrative. Personal experiences showcased deep-seated frustrations with sexism, highlighting the emotional toll and societal expectations placed on women during that era. Continue reading
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Giving the Light
The poem by Protyus A. Gendher explores the concept of “Light Giving,” comparing it to various forms of nurturing, such as mothering, grandmothering, and godmothering. As a light giver, or traditional surrogate, Protyus offers a unique perspective. They Emphasize unconditional love, guidance, and support, while highlighting the beauty of diverse experiences. Ultimately, it portrays light… Continue reading
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Getting Out
Getting Out by Protyus A. Gendher Getting Out Beware when person chooses themself It is a harbinger of change The very first indication That nothing will stay the same The slightest shift inside the soul That makes them matter within Like a force of nature finally released Flooding through the skin Once the epitome of sacrifice A selfless giving waste Discovered has a right to life Now Continue reading
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