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80) Ripples
The author reflects on their journey with trauma and parenting, emphasizing the challenge of sharing painful stories while trying to connect with their child. They explore the impact of unspoken trauma on relationships and highlight the importance of healing, openness, and authenticity. This process helps build trust and understanding within their family. Continue reading
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Cold and Wet
Cold and Wet It’s November 20, 2025. I live in an industrialized, “first world” nation, in a state that considers itself to be caring and compassionate. Colorado, the first state to legalize marijuana, was responsible for opening the doors of compassionate care to generations to come. I grew up on slogans like 9Cares Colorado Shares.… Continue reading
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Cold and Wet
Cold and Wet It’s November 20, 2025. I live in an industrialized, “first world” nation, in a state that considers itself to be caring and compassionate. Colorado, the first state to legalize marijuana, was responsible for opening the doors of compassionate care to generations to come. I grew up on slogans like 9Cares Colorado Shares.… Continue reading
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Cold and Wet
Cold and Wet It’s November 20, 2025. I live in an industrialized, “first world” nation, in a state that considers itself to be caring and compassionate. Colorado, the first state to legalize marijuana, was responsible for opening the doors of compassionate care to generations to come. I grew up on slogans like 9Cares Colorado Shares.… Continue reading
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80) Ripples
The author reflects on their journey with trauma and parenting, emphasizing the challenge of sharing painful stories while trying to connect with their child. They explore the impact of unspoken trauma on relationships and highlight the importance of healing, openness, and authenticity. This process helps build trust and understanding within their family. Continue reading
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Daily Prompt – Advice – 9.22.25
The author reflects on past advice received during childhood, finding it mostly unhelpful and limiting. The turning point comes with guidance from The Old Witch, who encourages accepting and owning one’s past to reclaim one’s life. This empowers the individual, preventing others from wielding that past against them. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 45) Treatment Review- Lumbar Nerve Ablation
The author shares their painful experience with lumbar nerve ablation, detailing the diagnostic rounds and procedures. After two painful rounds of injections with minimal relief, the author concluded the diagnostic tests were unsuccessful. They are now considering a spinal cord stimulator, but express fear and skepticism about further pain management options. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 44) Treatment Review-Hyaluronic Acid
The author discusses their experience with Hyaluronic Acid injections for knee pain relief due to the ineligibility for steroid and stem cell treatments. Despite the painful procedure, initial results show significant improvement in pain levels and knee functionality. The injections, required every 3-6 months, are covered by Medicaid, offering a hopeful solution. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 31) Physical Therapy
The author shares their experiences with physical therapy, highlighting the challenges and discomfort encountered while addressing hip, back, and shoulder issues. Despite initial soreness and excitement about progress, they face setbacks including increased shoulder pain and joint issues. The journey emphasizes the complexity of rehabilitation and the importance of careful exercise management. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 24) Settling In
On day two of a lifestyle change, the writer confronts strong cravings and the challenge of balancing allowable, appealing, and easy-to-prepare foods. While struggling with discomfort, they acknowledge that improvement feels minimal, focusing instead on reducing misery. Acceptance of this ongoing journey becomes crucial for long-term success. Continue reading
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Thicker Skin
In “Thicker Skin,” Protyus A. Gendher explores the emotional struggle between vulnerability and self-protection. The speaker questions the need to toughen their heart while desiring genuine connection and self-expression. They grapple with the fear of rejection and the effects of hiding their true self, ultimately seeking safety in sharing their art and identity. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 19) The Symptoms
The author shares a comprehensive list of their various health symptoms and diagnoses, including ADHD, autism, arthritis, and chronic pain. They aim to track their health changes as they interact with specialists and emphasize that the list serves as a reference. Many symptoms are severe and include issues like fatigue and digestive sensitivities. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 14) Schrodinger’s Brain
The author explores the complex nature of illness and self-doubt through the metaphor of Schrodinger’s brain, likening their symptoms to being simultaneously real and unreal. This internal struggle involves battling a critical inner voice, “Joyce,” and the challenge of seeking validation amidst fluctuating health. The journey highlights the quest for real answers and relief. Continue reading
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22) Mom
The narrative recounts the author’s complicated relationship with their mother following their father’s suicide. It depicts their mother’s struggles while raising her children amid grief, her strong personality, unique habits, and joys, such as cooking and gardening. Over time, her bitterness and distance grew, reflecting deep emotional turmoil. Continue reading
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19) Presidential Fitness Test
The Presidential Fitness Test, established in the 1950s to assess youth fitness in comparison to European peers, emphasized military-style performance. Over the years, it became associated with body shaming and emotional trauma for many, particularly those facing physical limitations. The test was abolished in 2013 after widespread criticism. Continue reading
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