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12) Inappropriate
Social anxiety and unique experience combine to create an explosive birthday with unintended consequences. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 6) ICYMI
The post hints at a future discussion on a relevant topic, inviting readers to contribute knowledge on its source. It includes a variety of hashtags related to autism, self-diagnosis, and personal struggles in communication and social skills, suggesting a focus on understanding neurodiversity and related challenges. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 5) YES Foods
YES Foods are foods that stabilize and heal the body. Finding these involves research and experimentation. The author favors the Atkins Induction diet for better health, avoiding processed foods, sugars, and certain vegetables. They plan gradual dietary changes, focusing on cooking methods like Sunrise, Salads, Soups, and Stirfries for variety and nutrients. Continue reading
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10) *Adult Supervision Required (TW) Part Two –
The author describes sexual abuse from their childhood. Continue reading
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9) Adult Supervision Required (TW)
The author adjusts to life in Indiana on a sharp learning curve. Continue reading
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7) New Scripts
The narrative reflects on a childhood shaped by rigid family dynamics and expectations, particularly towards maternal roles. The author recounts the contrast between their mother’s lively past and the oppressive environment created by their grandmother. Moving to Indiana signifies a turning point, offering glimpses of newfound freedom and self-discovery amid evolving family scripts. Continue reading
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5) I Wanna Play
The post “I Wanna Play” by Protyus A. Gendher reflects on the author’s experiences with isolation and societal exclusion throughout childhood and adulthood. Through evocative poetry, the author expresses longing for acceptance and understanding while critiquing the arbitrary social rules that dictate belonging. Ultimately, they seek to redefine the game rather than conform to it. Continue reading
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3) My Cult of Origin
The author explores the concept of “normal” as defined by family upbringing and experiences, using The Cult of the Ego to detail their childhood in a Colorado family shaped by strong patriarchal figures and specific behavioral expectations. The narrative highlights the impact of familial dynamics, traditions, and the importance of mentorship, alongside elements of affection,… Continue reading
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2) The Cult of the Ego
The Cult of the Ego examines how power dynamics shape individual behavior and societal structures, enabling a bodied understanding through the examination of dynamics of the interactions among children on a playground. The author reflects on personal experiences within mini cults of family and social hierarchies, urging self-examination regarding compliance and the reinforcement of power… Continue reading
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1) Stronger Than My Collagen
The author, a 45-year-old disabled individual, shares personal experiences and revelations from navigating life with rare disorders. They aim to explore themes of intersectionality, trauma, and societal issues through writing. Committed to giving voice to the silenced, the author emphasizes the importance of sharing stories and addressing triggering topics candidly. Continue reading
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BRB – Please Wait For Me
The author shares their journey of resilience and survival after experiencing homelessness, trauma, and health challenges. Reflecting on the impact of societal cruelty and personal struggles, they express a commitment to authenticity and connection. The blog aims to discuss various interconnected themes, inviting others to join in the transformative process of storytelling and healing. Continue reading
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1) Stronger Than My Collagen
The author, a 45-year-old disabled individual, shares personal experiences and revelations from navigating life with rare disorders. They aim to explore themes of intersectionality, trauma, and societal issues through writing. Committed to giving voice to the silenced, the author emphasizes the importance of sharing stories and addressing triggering topics candidly. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 4) The First Bite Is The Deepest
The author reflects on starting a lifestyle change by limiting coffee intake and choosing healthier options. They plan to develop a comprehensive nutrition and exercise regimen over the weekend, tracking progress without focusing solely on weight. Exploring personal improvements, they aim for gradual success and will document their journey moving forward. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 3) Being Treated Like a Hypochondriac
The author recounts their struggles with medical professionals who dismiss their serious symptoms as hypochondria, attributing them instead to common issues like weight. They detail multiple distressing symptoms, their search for a correct diagnosis, and a newfound awareness of potential connections to connective tissue disorders, all amid frustration and medical gaslighting. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 2) One Bite at a Time…
The blog discusses the author’s journey of managing hypermobility syndrome through diet and lifestyle changes, likening the process to “eating an elephant” one bite at a time. It reflects on past dietary experiences, the challenges of living with restrictions, and the support from family and work, emphasizing self-discovery and gradual improvement. Continue reading
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