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Zebra Files 17) Trying To Hit A Moving Target
The writer compares managing health challenges to eating a whole elephant, emphasizing ongoing struggles with pain, medical tests, and difficult lifestyle choices. They face guilt over limitations and are exploring dietary changes to alleviate symptoms. Despite setbacks, they remain committed to seeking treatment and improving their well-being while acknowledging the complexities involved. Continue reading
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28) Sisters
The author reflects on their complex relationships with younger sisters, shaped significantly by the loss of their father. Sister A, often feeling neglected, developed a distrustful personality, while Sister B became the author’s cherished companion. The narrative explores family dynamics, caregiving responsibilities, and the lasting impact of grief on sibling connections. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 16) While We Wait
The speaker is facing a month-long wait for a neurologist referral and additional delays for a geneticist’s diagnosis. Pending treatments include physical therapy, acupuncture, therapy, massage, chiropractic care, and potential pain injections. They also share a link to an external healing resource. Continue reading
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27) Autism
The author reflects on their journey with autism and ADHD, emphasizing the struggles of misdiagnosis and societal expectations. They recount experiences of isolation, misunderstanding, and the challenges of conformity in a rigid educational system. The narrative highlights the need for better recognition of autism, particularly among girls and non-binary individuals. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 15) Meaningless Answers
The author shares their ongoing struggle with persistent symptoms despite normal MRI results, ruling out MS and a CSF leak. They face severe pain, mobility issues, and insurance challenges for necessary physical therapy. A reduction in work hours raises financial concerns, while waiting for further medical evaluations adds to their anxiety. Continue reading
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26) Adolescent Sexuality
The author reflects on adolescence. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 14) Schrodinger’s Brain
The author explores the complex nature of illness and self-doubt through the metaphor of Schrodinger’s brain, likening their symptoms to being simultaneously real and unreal. This internal struggle involves battling a critical inner voice, “Joyce,” and the challenge of seeking validation amidst fluctuating health. The journey highlights the quest for real answers and relief. Continue reading
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24) It’s Ok
The content explores the complexities of grief through a reflective lens. It emphasizes that it’s acceptable to experience various emotions during mourning, highlighting the notion that one can feel both okay and not okay simultaneously. The author encourages self-acceptance and underscores the importance of personal healing journeys. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 13) Why Blog About It?
The author blogs about their medical journey for three main reasons: to process and analyze experiences, to create a searchable record of symptoms and illness progression, and to emphasize the importance of representation and visibility for shared experiences. Blogging fosters community and encourages open conversations about health struggles. Continue reading
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23) Conformity Part Two
The Stanford Prison Experiment, conducted by Philip Zimbardo in 1971, showcased the impact of perceived authority on human behavior in a simulated prison environment. Initially planned for two weeks, it ended after six days due to distress among participants, revealing how power and helplessness can drastically alter individuals’ actions and psyche. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 12) Bracing for the Week Ahead
The author expresses anxiety about upcoming changes at work, including requesting accommodations while facing performance evaluations. They feel disposable and fear job insecurity. Additionally, they are frustrated with their medical care regarding scoliosis and the need for imaging. Amid personal challenges, they strive to manage their responsibilities while seeking answers about their health. Continue reading
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22) Mom
The narrative recounts the author’s complicated relationship with their mother following their father’s suicide. It depicts their mother’s struggles while raising her children amid grief, her strong personality, unique habits, and joys, such as cooking and gardening. Over time, her bitterness and distance grew, reflecting deep emotional turmoil. Continue reading
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21) Race
The author reflects on their family’s self-perception of not being racist, despite underlying prejudices and racial microaggressions. They recount childhood experiences that reveal systemic racism in their upbringing. As a parent, they strive to raise antiracist children, acknowledging their own biases and the importance of confronting and understanding racism, aiming for personal and societal change. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 11) Trying To Recuperate When I Run Out Of Spoons
The author reflects on their struggles with chronic pain and hypermobility syndrome, recounting past injuries and the challenge of recognizing their physical limits. They describe a life of pushing through exhaustion, fear of losing patience with others, and the need to find ways to refuel their energy, hoping for accommodations at work. Continue reading
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20) Conformity
Conformity drives group behavior, influencing beliefs and actions, often unconsciously. It fosters belonging but can also lead to heinous acts. Studies like Asch’s and Milgram’s reveal the strength of peer pressure and obedience. Understanding these dynamics is crucial for resisting harmful group norms and fostering individual critical thinking. Continue reading
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