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Loveland Police Unnecessary Force Videos
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Cold and Wet
Cold and Wet It’s November 20, 2025. I live in an industrialized, “first world” nation, in a state that considers itself to be caring and compassionate. Colorado, the first state to legalize marijuana, was responsible for opening the doors of compassionate care to generations to come. I grew up on slogans like 9Cares Colorado Shares. Continue reading
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47) Like a Soda Can to the Forehead
In high school, the author struggled with social acceptance due to their obsession with facts and critical thinking, often resulting in conflicts. A notable incident involving a soda can taught them about respect and intimidation dynamics. Later, physical prowess in gym class shifted perceptions, making them resilient against bullying. Continue reading
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39) Runaway Part Two
The adventure continues, until it all ends. Continue reading
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70) Wyoming by Way of Utah Part Two
In “Wyoming by Way of Utah Part Two,” the narrator recounts a chaotic road trip filled with challenges, including losing crucial belongings and navigating unexpected situations. While seeking jobs and support, emotions ran high among friends. Ultimately, they find the lost planner, restoring hope and camaraderie amidst their struggles. Continue reading
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25) My Gender
Protyus A. Gendher’s poem “My Gender” explores the complexities of gender identity through vivid imagery and personal experiences. It reflects on themes of personal struggle, societal expectations, and emotional growth. Gendher illustrates gender as a multifaceted journey filled with chaos, joy, trauma, and resilience, emphasizing self-acceptance and individuality. Continue reading
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61) Two Lesbians and a Maintenance Guy
The narrative recounts a young person’s challenging journey of self-discovery while working at a fabric store. After befriending two lesbians and facing difficulties at home, they seek refuge with a maintenance guy, leading to a complicated relationship. Struggles with autonomy and unexpected situations culminate in a peculiar but humorous incident involving handcuffs and a police… Continue reading
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52) Human Trafficking Part Two
The content explores the cultural and religious codification of patriarchy and the resulting impact on women across various societies, including Islam, Buddhism, and Shinto. It highlights the role of women in these systems, the prevalence of human trafficking and domestic violence, and critiques the social structures that perpetuate inequality and control. Continue reading
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5) I Wanna Play
The post “I Wanna Play” by Protyus A. Gendher reflects on the author’s experiences with isolation and societal exclusion throughout childhood and adulthood. Through evocative poetry, the author expresses longing for acceptance and understanding while critiquing the arbitrary social rules that dictate belonging. Ultimately, they seek to redefine the game rather than conform to it. Continue reading
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46) God Forbid
The author uses the documentary “God Forbid” to explore the manipulative dynamics of The Cult of the Ego, focusing on Giancarlo’s experiences with Rev. Jerry Falwell Jr. and the evangelical elite. It highlights how power and moral status are exploited to control young men, masking corruption while waging moral campaigns against perceived societal threats. More… Continue reading
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38) Runaway Part 1
The author makes a break for it, escaping the control of home, for whatever the world would present. Continue reading
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64) Emotional Ambush
The author reflects on their struggle with emotional ambushes, feeling unworthy of their pain and ashamed of their emotional responses. They highlight the deep impact these ambushes can have on children, shaping adult behaviors and fears. The post emphasizes the importance of breaking this cycle for healthier emotional development. Continue reading
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24) It’s Ok
The content explores the complexities of grief through a reflective lens. It emphasizes that it’s acceptable to experience various emotions during mourning, highlighting the notion that one can feel both okay and not okay simultaneously. The author encourages self-acceptance and underscores the importance of personal healing journeys. Continue reading
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4) Family Scapegoat Syndrome with Video
The author reflects on Family Scapegoat Syndrome, discussing its cyclical nature and the psychological effects on individuals within dysfunctional family systems. They emphasize the importance of accessing social theories for healing and the struggle to break free from these cycles. Healing involves acknowledging all roles played and embracing self-worth beyond familial approval. Continue reading
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45) Oh Canada
The narrative recounts a journey to Canada for a wedding, exploring family dynamics and personal connections. The protagonist grapples with their father’s mental illness history, navigates relationships with relatives they barely know, and enjoys dance and music. The trip serves as a brief respite from familial tensions, but reality resumes upon returning home. Continue reading
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