Protyus A. Gendher
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Invitation to the Dominant Voice
The invitation encourages individuals used to being the focus to decenter themselves in a shared space. It emphasizes the importance of humility, healing, and listening to others’ experiences. By stepping away from dominant roles and participating as equals, attendees can contribute to a supportive community and foster mutual understanding. Continue reading
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Behind the Scenes with Protyus A. Gendher
Protyus A. Gendher reflects on the challenges of healing and the emotional toll of past criticisms on their creative work. While grappling with self-doubt and invasive thoughts, Gendher re-evaluates these critiques, realizing they stem from others’ discomfort rather than true flaws in their artistry. Healing involves embracing vulnerability and authenticity. Continue reading
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Silence is Deafening by Protyus A. Gendher
The silence is deafening As it falls in empty reckoningThat breed this hypocrisySomehow in this struggle to surviveTo stay aliveWe just ignore the abuse that remains when you reach the other sideIn a vacuum so timelessI’m running out of mindThis limboWhat then though?Detectives duct tape our mouthsSo screams still can’t come outDon’t you dare shoutOr Continue reading
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79) Reflections
The author explores the complexities of their childhood, grappling with feelings of self-loathing and the struggle for validation. They reflect on past traumas, relationships, and the internal conflict between acknowledging pain and minimizing it. Ultimately, they seek understanding of their worthiness and the necessity of self-love in their healing journey. Continue reading
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48) The One Debate Tournament I Went To
The author describes a double standard experienced by their mother in high school, and their rebellion through sexualized behavior. Continue reading
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17) Mallard Duck Day
The post reflects on the author’s challenging junior high experience, highlighting key teachers who positively impacted their life. Despite struggles with social dynamics, teachers inspired confidence, fostering a love for learning. However, bullying and lack of support from administration devastated one beloved teacher, resulting in a profound sense of loss for the author. Continue reading
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Letter to an Unlikely Helper
Letter to an Unlikely Helper Now that some time has passed, I want to take a moment to truly offer thanks. If I hadn’t been handed that simple phrase — “Let Them” — I might never have realized how deeply I was drowning and how desperately I needed change. The crisis it triggered ended up Continue reading
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78) Ditch Please
The narrator reflects on their challenging summer working at a ranch, facing low pay and personal insecurities. Despite enjoying the experience and camaraderie, they struggle with feelings of inadequacy as mistakes mount. Ultimately, they feel undervalued and question their worth amidst financial pressures and family judgments, leading to self-doubt and introspection. Continue reading
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47) Like a Soda Can to the Forehead
In high school, the author struggled with social acceptance due to their obsession with facts and critical thinking, often resulting in conflicts. A notable incident involving a soda can taught them about respect and intimidation dynamics. Later, physical prowess in gym class shifted perceptions, making them resilient against bullying. Continue reading
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16) Junior High
The author reflects on their challenging experience in junior high, marked by a lack of family support and feelings of isolation. As their family became distant, the author faced bullying and ridicule at school. Despite moments of achievement, like performing in a musical, they struggled to find acceptance and belonging among peers. Continue reading
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Loveland Police Unnecessary Force Videos
Loveland Police Unnecessary Force Videos This video is age restricted and can only be viewed on YouTube. Continue reading
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77) A Willing Hand
The narrator shares experiences working during haying season for a local rancher, feeling eager yet anxious to prove their worth. They navigate challenges with tractors, bond with a mostly established crew, and yearn for acceptance. The job brings personal growth and reflection, contrasting their past family ties with newfound independence. Continue reading
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46) God Forbid
The author uses the documentary “God Forbid” to explore the manipulative dynamics of The Cult of the Ego, focusing on Giancarlo’s experiences with Rev. Jerry Falwell Jr. and the evangelical elite. It highlights how power and moral status are exploited to control young men, masking corruption while waging moral campaigns against perceived societal threats. More… Continue reading
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15) Starting Over- Revisited
The post reflects on personal experiences of childhood trauma and healing, highlighting the significance of supportive relationships, like a caring teacher during difficult times, and memorable family trips. It addresses themes of grief, resilience, and the challenges of navigating societal expectations while coping with loss and navigating adolescence. Continue reading
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Raise Your Voice – Just Not Like That
Raise Your Voice – Just Not Like That As an activist there are some things you can ALWAYS count on. I invite you to present exceptions to the following. 1) Even though the work is the same somehow using the word “activist” will start a fight, whereas “advocates” will occasionally be heard. It’s not only Continue reading
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