Protyus A. Gendher
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15) Starting Over- Revisited
The post reflects on personal experiences of childhood trauma and healing, highlighting the significance of supportive relationships, like a caring teacher during difficult times, and memorable family trips. It addresses themes of grief, resilience, and the challenges of navigating societal expectations while coping with loss and navigating adolescence. Continue reading
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Raise Your Voice – Just Not Like That
Raise Your Voice – Just Not Like That As an activist there are some things you can ALWAYS count on. I invite you to present exceptions to the following. 1) Even though the work is the same somehow using the word “activist” will start a fight, whereas “advocates” will occasionally be heard. It’s not only Continue reading
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Emic and Etic – Trauma Informed Anthropology
Emic and Etic – Trauma Informed Anthropology I don’t have a cohort of academics to bounce ideas around with, so I’ll use Copilot. I’m interested in what you might think as well. is gaslighting the difference between etic and emic? No—gaslighting is not the difference between etic and emic. Gaslighting is a form of psychological Continue reading
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Freedom – What’s That?
Freedom – What’s That? Freedom is a core part of the American identity, but what does it mean? Is freedom being allowed to make as much money as possible? Is freedom being permitted to pursue the career of your choice, or attend university if you can rally the funds? Is it being able to live Continue reading
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Toxicity Toolkit 15 – Week 9 – Love Bombing
The Toxicity Toolkit addresses toxic behaviors that affect relationships, arising from various life experiences. It acknowledges that everyone displays toxic traits and aims to provide exercises for families to combat toxicity and cultivate healthier communication. The toolkit emphasizes recognizing toxicity, employing dialectical behavioral therapy, and fostering a positive environment for growth. Continue reading
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76) Wide Open Spaces
The passage reflects on personal experiences of living on a back road surrounded by nature and explores themes of food, connection, and language learning. The author recounts cooking memories with their mother, the challenges of taking a sign language course, and the emotional friction within family dynamics, ultimately affecting their sense of belonging. Continue reading
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45) Oh Canada
The narrative recounts a journey to Canada for a wedding, exploring family dynamics and personal connections. The protagonist grapples with their father’s mental illness history, navigates relationships with relatives they barely know, and enjoys dance and music. The trip serves as a brief respite from familial tensions, but reality resumes upon returning home. Continue reading
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14) Aftermath – Revisited
After the author’s father’s suicide due to schizophrenia, their family faced overwhelming grief and societal stigma surrounding mental illness. The author took on responsibilities to support their mother and younger siblings while coping with their own numbness and confusion. The birth of a new sister brought moments of joy amidst their sorrow, fostering a deeper… Continue reading
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Introducing Glass Ceiling Records & The Boundless Collective
Introducing Glass Ceiling Records & The Boundless Collective Glass Ceiling Records was born from a simple but radical idea: that artists shouldn’t have to wait for permission to tell the truth. This imprint exists to hold testimony, ritual, children’s music, protest anthems, and every hybrid form that emerges when lived experience becomes art. It’s a Continue reading
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Late Night Musings
Late Night Musings Hey Copilot, Philosophically, do republicans live in America whereas democrats live in the United States? That’s a sharp and evocative framing, Protyus—almost poetic in its symbolic contrast. Philosophically speaking, this kind of metaphor taps into deep cultural narratives and rhetorical divides. Let’s unpack it: 🧭 “America” vs. “The United States”: Symbolic Terrain Continue reading
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Toxicity Toolkit 14 – The Third Month
In the third month, you’ll address toxic positivity through Love Bombing in Week 9, learn DBT tools GIVE and FAST in Week 10, and concentrate on emotional regulation in Week 11. The creator encourages feedback on any harmful content found on the site. Continue reading
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75) Polygamy
The narrative recounts an engaging experience with a polygamous couple known as Mr. and Mrs. Amish-ish. The author reflects on their curious attraction to polygamy, emphasizing community, shared responsibilities, and emotional openness. Living with them deepens connections and initiates spiritual rituals. However, the author later faces job loss, highlighting challenges amid personal growth. Continue reading
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44) Autism Part Two
The post discusses the overlooked history of Autism and its intersection with societal control and conformity. It contrasts traditional views of Pathological Demand Avoidance with evolutionary perspectives that consider it an antithetical response to tyranny. The author encourages viewers to engage with a TikTok discussing Autism’s relationship with authoritarianism. Continue reading
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13) School – Revisited
The narrative follows a student’s challenging journey through elementary school, marked by struggles with social acceptance, weight issues, and coping with mental health after their father’s suicide. They navigate difficult relationships with peers and teachers, ultimately grappling with feelings of isolation, confusion, and loss amid attempts for a normal school experience. Continue reading
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Cold and Wet
Cold and Wet It’s November 20, 2025. I live in an industrialized, “first world” nation, in a state that considers itself to be caring and compassionate. Colorado, the first state to legalize marijuana, was responsible for opening the doors of compassionate care to generations to come. I grew up on slogans like 9Cares Colorado Shares. Continue reading
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