Poetry
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Brave
The poem by Protyus A. Gendher challenges perceptions of bravery and resilience, asserting that an individual’s authenticity should not require validation or glorification of pain. It critiques the tendency to label personal struggles with concepts like “survivor,” urging others to reconsider the implications of such terms on one’s unique experience. Continue reading
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Anxiety
The poem “Anxiety” by Protyus A. Gendher explores the debilitating effects of stress and doubt in relationships. It expresses a desire for genuine connection without the burden of anxiety, emphasizing the need for love to flourish free of fear and uncertainty. Ultimately, it highlights the struggle of couples trapped in cycles of worry and misunderstanding. Continue reading
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Abstinence
Abstinence by Protyus A. Gendher Abstinence Abstinence Abstinence Abstinence I read this shit and none of it makes sense Because nobody I know is doing this I’m pretty sure most “girls” want to see a penis But in my gendered reality This lesson, this teacher, this culture would make a monster out of me For failing to be someone controlled Someone who didn’t… Continue reading
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Abortion
This piece takes a deep dive into the caveats of reproductive rights. Continue reading
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Thicker Skin
In “Thicker Skin,” Protyus A. Gendher explores the emotional struggle between vulnerability and self-protection. The speaker questions the need to toughen their heart while desiring genuine connection and self-expression. They grapple with the fear of rejection and the effects of hiding their true self, ultimately seeking safety in sharing their art and identity. Continue reading
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Drag Therapy
“Drag Therapy” by Protyus A. Gendher explores the journey of self-acceptance and empowerment through drag performance. It addresses confronting personal trauma, societal expectations, and reclaiming identity. The work emphasizes the liberation found in vulnerability, expressing emotions, and the transformative power of art in confronting and celebrating one’s true self. Continue reading
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Don’t Call Me Miss
The poem “Boi” by Protyus A. Gendher explores themes of identity, societal expectations, and self-acceptance. It expresses the struggle of fitting into predefined roles while encouraging authenticity and the recognition of one’s worth. The speaker emphasizes that individuals are valid and valuable just as they are, despite external pressures. Continue reading
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Closet Doors
Closet Doors explores concepts of safety and identity Continue reading
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Boi
The poem “Boi” by Protyus A. Gendher explores themes of identity, societal expectations, and self-acceptance. It expresses the struggle of fitting into predefined roles while encouraging authenticity and the recognition of one’s worth. The speaker emphasizes that individuals are valid and valuable just as they are, despite external pressures. Continue reading
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Before I Knew I Was Trans
Before I Knew I Was Trans by Protyus A. Gendher Before I Knew I Was Trans Before I knew I was trans I sucked at being a girl I sucked at learning all of the prescribed rules I was force-fed in this world. I sucked at keeping my knees together wearing the skirt that they… Continue reading
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Ally
Examine allyship. Continue reading
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Family
The poem “Family” by Protyus A. Gendher explores the pain and alienation felt within a dysfunctional family. It reflects on the façade of love and support while revealing the torment of gaslighting and the pressure to conform. Ultimately, the speaker recognizes the impact of this toxicity on their own child and struggles with the need… Continue reading
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Disposable
The poem “Disposable” by Protyus A. Gendher reflects the pain of feeling welcomed only to be reminded of one’s outsider status. The author expresses the hurt of false kindness from those who, once boundaries are drawn, reveal that their affection is conditional, leaving the speaker feeling alone and undervalued. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 18) Understanding Where I’m Coming From
The author shares poetry reflecting on personal health struggles, including mental health, ADHD, and obesity. The poem describes a transformative experience with mental anguish, contemplating death before choosing life. The semicolon symbolizes resilience, representing a continuation of the author’s story despite hardships. The work emphasizes overcoming despair and embracing a renewed existence. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 16) While We Wait
The speaker is facing a month-long wait for a neurologist referral and additional delays for a geneticist’s diagnosis. Pending treatments include physical therapy, acupuncture, therapy, massage, chiropractic care, and potential pain injections. They also share a link to an external healing resource. Continue reading
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