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17) Mallard Duck Day
The post reflects on the author’s challenging junior high experience, highlighting key teachers who positively impacted their life. Despite struggles with social dynamics, teachers inspired confidence, fostering a love for learning. However, bullying and lack of support from administration devastated one beloved teacher, resulting in a profound sense of loss for the author. Continue reading
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17) Mallard Duck Day
The post reflects on the author’s challenging junior high experience, highlighting key teachers who positively impacted their life. Despite struggles with social dynamics, teachers inspired confidence, fostering a love for learning. However, bullying and lack of support from administration devastated one beloved teacher, resulting in a profound sense of loss for the author. Continue reading
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17) Mallard Duck Day
The post reflects on the author’s challenging junior high experience, highlighting key teachers who positively impacted their life. Despite struggles with social dynamics, teachers inspired confidence, fostering a love for learning. However, bullying and lack of support from administration devastated one beloved teacher, resulting in a profound sense of loss for the author. Continue reading
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To My Friends
The author expresses solidarity with marginalized groups, including friends of color and gender non-conforming individuals, affirming their worth and significance. They acknowledge the shortcomings faced by future generations, apologizing for failing to provide better support. Additionally, they advocate for neurodivergent individuals, emphasizing their validity in society. Continue reading
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I Was Magic
The poem “I Was Magic” by Protyus A. Gendher explores the dynamics of a relationship marked by jealousy and overshadowed individuality. The speaker reflects on how their partner initially admired their uniqueness but later demands to be the center of attention, leading to the speaker’s gradual loss of self-worth and sparkle. Continue reading
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Heartbreak and Hoofbeats
Heartbreak and Hoofbeats by Protyus A. Gendher Heartbreak and HoofbeatsProfessionals are trained to unsee me Even when they’re looking for things unseen They can’t or won’t or don’t look deep Even when I spread it all out before their eyes Tying pieces together like an episode of CSI Flimsy red string connecting the bits of the puzzle But they listen like… Continue reading
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Hands Tied
Hands Tied by Protyus A. Gendher Hands Tied Hands Tied There’s a commotion outside And my hands are tied Piercing the night Screams of rage and fright They’re fighting again Could this be the end? Could this be the fight Someone doesn’t survive? I’ve been in those fights Before in my life So, I don’t have to know them To know what’s inside Both of them sound abusive, Because abuse… Continue reading
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Gumption
In “Gumption,” Protyus A. Gendher explores themes of identity, individuality, and resistance against societal expectations. The speaker rejects commodification and challenges perceptions that reduce a person to mere consumption, asserting their unique voice and worth. They confront the hypocrisy and superficiality of judgments from others, embracing their authenticity. Continue reading
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Going Numb
Reflections of 2020 Continue reading
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Giving the Light
The poem by Protyus A. Gendher explores the concept of “Light Giving,” comparing it to various forms of nurturing, such as mothering, grandmothering, and godmothering. As a light giver, or traditional surrogate, Protyus offers a unique perspective. They Emphasize unconditional love, guidance, and support, while highlighting the beauty of diverse experiences. Ultimately, it portrays light… Continue reading
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Getting Out
Getting Out by Protyus A. Gendher Getting Out Beware when person chooses themself It is a harbinger of change The very first indication That nothing will stay the same The slightest shift inside the soul That makes them matter within Like a force of nature finally released Flooding through the skin Once the epitome of sacrifice A selfless giving waste Discovered has a right to life Now… Continue reading
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Expert
The poem by Protyus A. Gendher emphasizes personal identity and self-awareness. It advocates for individual empowerment, asserting that only one knows their true self, dreams, and experiences. The author expresses a desire for mutual sharing of identities, inviting others to share who they are alongside their own self-affirmation. Continue reading
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Due Process
Due Process by Protyus A. Gendher Due Process Constitutional amendment number 5 Meant to keep us alive When accused of a crime Until we have our time In the courts, until then blind Justice But fuck this System where the accused are executed on sight Ignoring our rights Cops know they don’t have to abide The know which lives don’t really have rights And there’s no end… Continue reading
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Daddy
Daddy by Protyus A. Gendher Daddy Some people only grace our lives for a moment Present for a second, then off they go again I was 8 years old when I met my dad My family finally looking like the ones other kids had I thought when he married Mom, we’d keep him forever Not knowing our lives can change like… Continue reading
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Culture Shock
The poem “Culture Shock” by Protyus A. Gendher emphasizes the importance of overcoming cultural differences to foster understanding and learning. It highlights the need to set aside egos and perspectives that dismiss others, advocating for unity and appreciation of diversity rather than division, which stifles personal and collective growth. Continue reading
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