Protyus A. Gendher
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AIQ – The Military Cult
The meeting of nearly 1,000 U.S. military generals on September 30, 2025, featured War Secretary Pete Hegseth and former President Trump promoting aggressive policies. They emphasized physical standards, domestic troop deployment, and loyalty over dissent. Their rhetoric raises concerns about potential authoritarianism and radicalization within the military, challenging constitutional principles and democratic oversight. Continue reading
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Silence is Deafening by Protyus A. Gendher
The silence is deafening As it falls in empty reckoningThat breed this hypocrisySomehow in this struggle to surviveTo stay aliveWe just ignore the abuse that remains when you reach the other sideIn a vacuum so timelessI’m running out of mindThis limboWhat then though?Detectives duct tape our mouthsSo screams still can’t come outDon’t you dare shoutOr Continue reading
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88) She Chased Me
The narrator navigates life alone and struggles with health issues, financial instability, and family estrangement. Amidst her challenges, she finds joy in new CNA classes and develops an attraction to a charming coworker. The story unfolds with hints of unexpected pregnancy and culminates in a romantic moment, revealing deeper emotional connections. Continue reading
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I could really use your help! 9.30.25
I have, once again, made some changes in hopes that it makes this place more readable, consumable, digestible. It’s so hard to be pretty and functional at the same time, but I continue to strive. I noticed that the foreground and the background were often difficult for my eyes to differentiate. I acknowledge that this Continue reading
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87) A Place for Me
The narrative reflects the author’s journey of settling into a new home after a tumultuous and short-lived polygamous marriage. They find solace in independence while grappling with memories of familial relationships, particularly with their mother. Amidst building a fulfilling life and career as a CNA, the author navigates feelings of loss, identity, and longing for… Continue reading
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Protyus, Protyus, Wherefore art thou Protyus?
The author reflects on their journey as a public content creator, necessitating a pen name for safety and identity. They chose “Protyus A. Gendher,” inspired by Proteus’ symbolism of versatility and their agender identity. Exploring multicultural connections, they express a desire to learn about South Asia while aiming to broaden their audience. Continue reading
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86) Jealousy
The author recounts the painful experience of being asked to leave a polygamous living arrangement due to jealousy. Citing ongoing turbulence with their mother they move into a dilapidated cabin, facing challenges while trying to cope with heartbreak and feelings of abandonment, longing for love and connection amidst hardships. Continue reading
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Toxicity Toolkit – Points to Ponder 29 – More Happy Child
The author shares a transformative experience using “The Happy Child,” which significantly improved their relationship with their child. Through shared lessons, they process trauma, discuss parenting mistakes, and role-play new approaches. This dynamic change fosters emotional safety and trust, leading to better communication and healing within the family. Highly recommended resource. Continue reading
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Daily Prompt – Top Priority – 9.29.25
What is your #1 priority tomorrow? Dismantle Systems of Oppression Full Stop. Continue reading
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Daily Prompt – Hard Work – 9.28.25
The author reflects on the misconception of tying self-worth to hard work, stemming from personal struggles and family rejection. They realize that fulfillment comes not from effort or exhaustion, but from the inherent value of the tasks themselves. Hard work can be fulfilling but should not define one’s worthiness. Continue reading
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85) Ice
After a difficult season, the narrator takes a night job as a laundress at a care facility, driving an unreliable old car. Struggling with harsh winter conditions, she navigates challenges both at work and on the road. Personal struggles intertwine with moments of connection, leading to a poignant reflection on dependence and vulnerability. Continue reading
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Toxicity Toolkit – Points to Ponder 28 – The Happy Child
The Happy Child app offers parents concise daily lessons that enhance their relationship with children based on scientific research. Users can choose their learning pace, typically starting with just five minutes daily. The app promotes love and recognition of a child’s choices, encouraging improved family dynamics and positive parenting practices. Continue reading
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Daily Prompt – Likable Trait – 9.27.25
The author values their persistent authenticity as their most admirable trait. They emphasize the importance of being true to oneself, indicating that this unwavering characteristic defines their identity and self-worth. Continue reading
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84) Matthew
The post reflects on the impact of Matthew Shepard’s murder on the author, who feels deeply connected to their identity as a bisexual witch in Wyoming. It highlights the pervasive bigotry encountered, despite some community members claiming to support “live and let live.” The author expresses determination to fight for equality and honor Matthew’s legacy,… Continue reading
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Toxicity Toolkit – Points to Ponder 27 – TEAM
The author recounts their family’s struggles during the pandemic, emphasizing the importance of treating each other as teammates. Initial cohabitation challenges led to feelings of overwhelm and disconnection. Through therapy, they learned to foster collaboration, communicate supportively, and reassess interactions to create a nurturing home environment, ultimately promoting healing and understanding. Continue reading
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