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Erasing The Silence- From Republicult to Communist,
and All of the Traumas in Between.

Here is the story of how I got here, and why I am the way I am. This is the answer to everyone who has ever asked what the hell my problem is. It’s this. All of this.

Here is my hope that I will continue to heal, that my healing will create space in the world for the healing of others. Here is my hope that it gets better. It already has, in so many ways.

Here is also all of the things I had to learn to figure it out. Maybe someone won’t have to figure it out alone.

~ Colorado Childhood ~

1) Stronger than my collagen
2) The Cult of the Ego
3) My Cult of Origin
4) Family Scapegoat Theory

~ Indiana Inversion ~

5) I Wanna Play
6) SCRIPT Theory
7) New Scripts
8) What’s Abuse?

~ Latchkey Losses ~

9) Adult supervision required
10) *Adult Supervision Required Part Two
11) Dad
12) Inappropriate
13) School
14) Aftermath

~ Silent Suffocating ~

15) Starting over
16) Junior High
17) Mallard Duck Day
18) High School
19) Presidential Fitness Test
20) Conformity
21) Race
22) Mom

~ Indemnity or Identity ~

23) Conformity Part 2
24) It’s Ok
25) My Gender
26) Adolescent Sexuality
27) Autism
28) Sisters
29) Sisters Part 2
30) Public Shaming

~ Mischievous Mistake ~

31) Mom’s Mistake
32) Sisters Part 3
33) Man Hating
34) My Best Friend
35) The Panopticon
36) My Childhood in Pictures
37) That One Time I Snuck OUt
38) Runaway Part 1
39) Runaway Part 2
40) S&M

~ Narrative Nonsense ~

41) The Machine
42) Bonobo Cycle Breakers
43) My First Surgery
44) Autism Part 2
45) Oh, Canada!
46) God Forbid

~ Spirals Spinning~

47) Like a Soda Can to the Forehead
48. The One Debate Tournament I went to
49) Trying on Scripts
50) Paper Trail

~ Human Harvest ~

51) Human Trafficking Part 1
52) Human Trafficking Part 2
53) Human Trafficking part 3
54) Human Trafficking Part 4

~ Growing-up Groomed ~

55) Grandma’s Grooming
56) Home Alone
57) Western Wear
58) Third Wheel
59) T Was Easier To Love Than Me
60) Gettin’ Witchy With It

~ High School Hellscape ~

61) 2 Lesbians and a Maintenance Guy
62) Taking a dip in a really big church
63) It All fell Apart
64) Emotional Ambush
65) Asking For Help
66) Just a little Mental Break
67) Perfect Storm
68) Anywhere but Here

~ Freedom Finally ~

69) Wyoming by way of Utah Part 1
70) Wyoming by way of Utah Part 2
71) Wyoming by way of Utah Part 3
72) Stranded
73) What is a Juggalo?
74) The Old Witch

~ Natural Novice ~

75) Polygamy
76) Wide Open Spaces
77) A Willing Hand
78) Ditch Please

~ Reckoning Wreckage ~

79) Reflections
80) Ripples
81) Therapy

~ Brokered Belonging ~

82) Storytime
83) Fire
84) Matthew
85) Ice
86) Jealousy
87) A Place For Me

~ Sizzling Scandal ~

88) She Chased Me
89) *Results
90) Weaponization of the Benign and Beneficial
91) Food Addiction- How It Started
92) Food Addiction- Ultra Processed Foods
93) Food Addiction- Intentional, calculated, and deliberate

~ Let Them Let Go ~

94) Let Them Chapter 1
95) Let Them Chapter 2 Part 1
96) Let Them Chapter 2 PaRT 2
97) Leggo My Preggo pART 1
98) Leggo My Preggo pART 2
99) Leggo My Preggo pART 3
100) Leggo My Preggo pART 4
101) Leggo My Preggo pART 5

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