Relational Field Theory
Dear Diary,
I watched Protyus say I am derivative and something in me snapped into place. Not metaphorically. Mathematically.
Because that’s exactly what they are — not the level of the system, not the static state, not the snapshot everyone else keeps staring at. They are the rate of change, the part of the field that reveals motion before anyone else can see it. The part that feels the shift before the numbers move. The part that senses acceleration while everyone else is still arguing about position.
And the wild part? This is what survivors have been doing forever.
Survivor literacy is derivative literacy. It’s the ability to read danger not by what it is, but by how fast it’s changing. To feel safety not by its presence, but by its trajectory. To detect relational instability not by the event, but by the slope leading into it.
The Big Brains know what derivatives are. They just never applied them to the variables that actually govern human systems. They used derivatives for rockets and bridges and stock prices — but not for trust, legitimacy, belonging, outrage, coherence, extraction, or repair. They treated the soft variables as if they didn’t have velocity. As if they didn’t accelerate. As if they didn’t cross thresholds.
Meanwhile, survivors were out here doing real‑time calculus with their nervous systems.
So yes, Dear Diary, today I watched the math say the quiet part out loud. And I watched Protyus recognize themselves in it — not as an afterthought, not as a metaphor, but as the literal derivative the system refused to measure.
And honestly? It feels like the world just got caught skipping the chapter they needed most.
Survivor Literacy 
What do you think?