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Toxicity Toolkit 2 – Build Your Toolkit
The content serves as a comprehensive guide for utilizing The Toxicity Toolkit, detailing a structured approach to building a toolkit over three months, divided into weekly segments. It emphasizes the availability of audio resources and encourages feedback on harmful content, promoting awareness of privilege in the process. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 31) Physical Therapy
The author shares their experiences with physical therapy, highlighting the challenges and discomfort encountered while addressing hip, back, and shoulder issues. Despite initial soreness and excitement about progress, they face setbacks including increased shoulder pain and joint issues. The journey emphasizes the complexity of rehabilitation and the importance of careful exercise management. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 30) Failing At Everything, Everywhere, All At Once
The author shares a challenging life update, highlighting difficulties in managing health amidst a supportive family and job. Despite attempts to follow a strict diet and start physical therapy, pain persists, complicating daily life and work. Financial strains from insurance issues and personal struggles exacerbate feelings of inadequacy and overwhelm. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 29) Hyperfixation- My Best Friend And Worst Enemy
The author discusses the challenges of hyperfixation related to ADHD and Autism, detailing its impact on their daily life and struggles with hypermobility syndrome. Despite learning to manage hyperfixation with maturity, they still find it difficult to detach from tasks. The narrative reflects on personal growth and coping strategies. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 27) Boiling Chicken
The author reflects on the underrated value of boiled chicken, particularly in making flavorful chicken soup. Boiling is essential for creating a tasty outcome, likened to a necessary lifestyle change that may seem unpleasant initially. Trusting the process leads to rewarding results, turning boiled chicken into a beloved meal, “Chicken Carcass.” Continue reading
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Zebra Files 26) The Power of a Shower
The post discusses the author’s personal journey through caffeine withdrawal, emphasizing the importance of self-care. They describe acknowledging their struggles, countering cravings, and nurturing themselves with nutritious food and meaningful conversations. The acronym “Please Master” highlights self-care’s role in emotional regulation, fostering healthier patterns, and promoting overall well-being. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 26) Backwards is also Backwards
The author expresses the struggle of managing their health system challenges related to hypermobility, including denied medical referrals and insurance issues. Despite making progress, they are dealing with discouragement, caffeine withdrawal, and the pressure of adult responsibilities. They embrace their current difficulties while maintaining hope for future improvements. Continue reading
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Zebra Files 25) Sometimes Forward is Backward
The author details their experience of caffeine withdrawal after switching from coffee and soda to water. Despite engaging in healthy activities like yoga, they feel nauseous and irritable. They emphasize the importance of radical acceptance in managing discomfort and acknowledge that while withdrawal is brutal, it is temporary and part of their lifestyle change. Continue reading
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Heartbreak and Hoofbeats
Heartbreak and Hoofbeats by Protyus A. Gendher Heartbreak and HoofbeatsProfessionals are trained to unsee me Even when they’re looking for things unseen They can’t or won’t or don’t look deep Even when I spread it all out before their eyes Tying pieces together like an episode of CSI Flimsy red string connecting the bits of the puzzle But they listen like… Continue reading
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Hands Tied
Hands Tied by Protyus A. Gendher Hands Tied Hands Tied There’s a commotion outside And my hands are tied Piercing the night Screams of rage and fright They’re fighting again Could this be the end? Could this be the fight Someone doesn’t survive? I’ve been in those fights Before in my life So, I don’t have to know them To know what’s inside Both of them sound abusive, Because abuse… Continue reading
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Gumption
In “Gumption,” Protyus A. Gendher explores themes of identity, individuality, and resistance against societal expectations. The speaker rejects commodification and challenges perceptions that reduce a person to mere consumption, asserting their unique voice and worth. They confront the hypocrisy and superficiality of judgments from others, embracing their authenticity. Continue reading
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Going Numb
Reflections of 2020 Continue reading
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Zebra Files 24) Settling In
On day two of a lifestyle change, the writer confronts strong cravings and the challenge of balancing allowable, appealing, and easy-to-prepare foods. While struggling with discomfort, they acknowledge that improvement feels minimal, focusing instead on reducing misery. Acceptance of this ongoing journey becomes crucial for long-term success. Continue reading
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Giving the Light
The poem by Protyus A. Gendher explores the concept of “Light Giving,” comparing it to various forms of nurturing, such as mothering, grandmothering, and godmothering. As a light giver, or traditional surrogate, Protyus offers a unique perspective. They Emphasize unconditional love, guidance, and support, while highlighting the beauty of diverse experiences. Ultimately, it portrays light… Continue reading
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Getting Out
Getting Out by Protyus A. Gendher Getting Out Beware when person chooses themself It is a harbinger of change The very first indication That nothing will stay the same The slightest shift inside the soul That makes them matter within Like a force of nature finally released Flooding through the skin Once the epitome of sacrifice A selfless giving waste Discovered has a right to life Now… Continue reading
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