Worry by Protyus A. Gendher

Worry by Protyus A. Gendher [Glass Ceiling Records]

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I wish deeply that I had grown up in a home that taught me to regulate my emotions instead of punishing me for having them, (only later to be accused of having flattened affect). Here’s the thing though: if they aren’t gonna parent you, you gotta get up and parent yourself, you know? Sure, repeating all of those same cycles is certainly a choice, but why? It hurt. It was awful. My nervous system will never fully rewire. The effects are permanent and compounding.

So, let’s parent ourselves then. That starts with emotional regulation and social-emotional learning. It’s saved me. It’s saved my kiddos. It’s saved my relationship with them. I’m an atheist, but I will preach on this whether or not I have a pulpit.

Heal on purpose. Heal out of spite if you have to, and along the way I’m here to hold you.

Sometimes I get invasive thoughts 

And my head starts spinning 

I think about everything going wrong 

And can’t imagine winning 

 

I think of all the things that I’ve messed up 

And feel very deeply that I’m not enough 

But I don’t have to be perfect to be worthy 

And I deserve peace in the space I’m hurting 

 

So I give myself a hug and hold myself tight 

I breathe deeply and remind myself that I am alright 

There’s no crisis. Nothing’s on fire. 

My anxiety is just loud, and it’s a known liar. 

 

I’m worthy, I’m loved, and I get to make mistakes 

My imperfection won’t make the Earth quake 

Today will end, and tomorrow too 

I’m doing my best, and that’ll have to do. 

I’m worthy, I’m loved, and I get to make mistakes 

My imperfection won’t make the Earth quake 

Today will end, and tomorrow too 

I’m doing my best, and that’ll have to do. 

I’m worthy, I’m loved, and I get to make mistakes 

My imperfection won’t make the Earth quake 

Today will end, and tomorrow too 

I’m doing my best, and that’ll have to do. 

I’m doing my best, I bet you are too.